Archive for February, 2010

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Melanie Fiona’s ‘It Kills Me’: The Desperate, Pathetic Woman’s Anthem

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I know sometimes we are all a sucker for a good beat, a nice melody and a sweet voice. A current song that has recently made its way to the top of the charts, though, has got to be the worst thing to happen to women since stiletto heels. When I first heard this tune, I wasn’t familiar with Melanie Fiona (pictured above). I just knew that every time I heard the pathetic, desperate, lyrics, I was disgusted.

It’s been a long time since I heard a song by a woman that was so destructive to the empowerment of sisterhood. Fiona’s song is basically, the desperate, pathetic woman’s anthem. Forget self-esteem, forget independent thought, forget doing what’s best for you, Fiona loudly proclaims about 15 times a day, every day, on the radio that, it’s really about a warm body. Forget demanding that you be treated with respect, as long as he comes home eventually, it’s all good.

Fiona’s song unfortunately tells young women that agonizing over a no-good man, who is clearly bad for you, is not only reasonable but is a true indicator of “love.” It proclaims to the rooftops that having a dirty dog of a boyfriend is okay, and you just have to deal with it as best you can.

And as if we don’t have enough problems with families in the black community, now here comes a woman who shamelessly declares that she also wants to have babies with this man, who admittedly treats her like dog shit. He cheats, they fight, he doesn’t come home — sounds like the perfect man to father your babies, Melanie.

At some point we must all take responsibility for the messages we are promulgating to our young people about life and relationships and choices. Can we be that surprised that our young women allow themselves to be treated poorly and then add insult to injury by having children with awful men in the name of “love” ? We wonder why our ladies come home with idiots and thugs who can’t string a sentence together or who abuse them or otherwise disrespect them? We wonder why so many young women blamed Rihanna. Well, I have one place to start looking for answers: the radio. Yes, Fiona, you’ve gotta be out your mind.

LYRICS:  ”It Kills Me” by Melanie Fiona

I’ve got trouble with my friends, trouble in my life.  Problems when you don’t come home at night,  but when you do you always start a fight…

But I cant be alone I need you to come on home I know you messing around, but who the hell else is gonna hold me down ?

Ooooh I gotta be out my mind to think it’s gonna work this time… A part of me wants to leave, but the other side still believes…

And it kills me to know how much I really love you. So much I wanna ooh hoo ohh to you hoo hoo

Should I grab his cell, call this chic up Start some shhhh then hang up?

Or should I be a lady Oohh maybe cause I wanna have his babies…

Ohh yah yahh cause I don’t wanna be alone,  I don’t need to be on my own. But I love this man But some things I just can’t stand.

ohhhh Ive gotta be out my mind To think its gonna work this time…

A part of me wants to leave but the other half still believes and it kills me to know how much I really love you So much I wanna oohh hoo ohhh, to you hoo hooo…

Should I pay him back to see how he’ll react ,to see if he’ll React to my love…

My love Oohh I’ve gotta be out my mind,  to think it’s gonna work this time…

Oohh a part of me wants to leave but the other half still believes and it kills me to know how much I really love you so much I wanna oohh hoo to you hoo hoo…

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

You Asked For It…

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Just wanted to let everyone know that my book is finally out!  Conversate is Not A word has hit the shelves and it is a project that I am extremely proud of. (Now you know why it took so long between posts over the last year)  It is a book I think you will enjoy and as always your feedback is welcome.

You can get a copy here !  Thank you so much for your support.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Check Me Out in the February 2010 Issue of Ebony !!!

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Monday, February 1, 2010

Why American Idol Makes Me Sad

My yearly ode to American Idol….

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Some would look at “American Idol” and think it was the living and breathing personification of the American dream. Nobodies getting a chance to be international superstars; it is a once-in-a-lifetime chance at fame and fortune. Only in America! But somehow I don’t see it as a great testimony to hope and the American dream. In my eyes, it shows just how hope-less so many of us have become.

Celebrity is our new religion. You don’t want to be the best, or the smartest or the most honest or the person who worked the hardest. You just want to be the most famous. However you get there, it’s fame that counts now. Those poor schmucks just want a chance to be somebody, anybody. America has taught us that celebrity is really the only thing that really counts. The only time YOU count.

I watch the auditions and see a little smiling boy looking into the camera as he waits for his father to complete his audition, saying “Daddy gon’ to Hollywood!” He’s probably not old enough to read, but he’s old enough to know that going to Hollywood is the most important thing. Another woman breaks down crying into the chest of clearly uncomfortable Ryan Seacrest after an unsuccessful audition.

It’s no wonder that so many of those young people are devastated. To them, they missed their chance. Not their chance to be on a TV show, but a chance to be somebody for once in their lives. Our obsession with celebrity and money has made us all feel inadequate in our daily lives. Compared to the lives of Beyonce and Paris Hilton and Diddy and Jay-Z, it would seem that our lives totally suck. Nothing in our lives is valuable or important. It cant be because we’re not famous and thats what really counts.

And we, the viewing public, are ever so happy to participate in this process. We vicariously feel their excitement when they exit the audition room with their gold ticket and everyone screams with joy and envelopes them in hugs. Nevertheless, something portends disaster. It’s strangely similar to watching someone who won the lottery and being happy for them, but secretly knowing that its more likely than not that they will be broke in five years. We know the story so well. It happens every year. For 99 percent of them, the dream will be over in weeks. They will leave the show and the spotlight, and then what?

It’s the “then what” part that is so disturbing. How we have come to measure success has become so distorted and myopic. We have young people who are so starved for “fame” and “celebrity” and “easy riches” that their lives become solely a quest for what will make them a star. From Youtube to “Idol,” we are raising a generation whose only barometer for achievement is a lifestyle of celebrity and easy wealth. Fuck a job.

Whereas a generation ago, men and women were happy if they just achieved more than their parents: if they got to college or got a good job and had a family. That was success to them. Now, we deem ourselves failures if we’re not millionaires by 30. We are lost in what we see, what others have, what we don’t have, what we’re not. We don’t feel like somebody in our personal lives, so we go audition for “American Idol,” hoping someone will deem us worthy. Will make us feel as if we matter. Famous people matter, so we want to be them. By any means necessary.

If there was any doubt that the hope of overnight celebrity has indeed overshadowed the hope of achieving something substantive in life, then “American Idol” is proof positive. Is there such a void of hope in this country that “American Idol” has replaced Jesus as savior to the downtrodden? I mean, let’s face it, Jesus won’t get you on the cover of People or a reality show.

And those poor people who are so angry or sob uncontrollably. I bet it’s not only because they didn’t move through to the next round. A woman cried in to her cell phone after being rejected, “They crushed my dream.” For some of them, this is all they believe they can do. It’s like in the movie “Precious,” when the teacher asked her what she was good at, and she said, “Nothing.” Many believe that this made-up, marketing machine of a TV show holds the only key to their happiness.

No one has told them that they are smart and beautiful and courageous and have something unique and important to offer the world. Somewhere along the line, we decided that being a star was more important then being smart, being honest, having a career and working hard. In too many cases, no one has told them that education is what matters. An education will never reject you or tell you you’re dreadful. You don’t need a gold ticket if you OWN the show. The key to success is education and hard work. Period.

No one emphasizes that far more people don’t make it than do, and the biggest stars aren’t where they are because a panel of judges deemed them talented. They worked and scratched and hustled for years.

No one has told these young people that they have unique skills in geometry or a foreign language and can be an astronaut or an ambassador one day. No one tells them they can build bridges or fly airplanes or sit on the Supreme Court. Whatever happened to real American Dreams?

If you ask 20 elementary school students what they want to be when they grow up, the standard doctor-lawyer answer that has been around for a generation, has been replaced by entertainer-athlete. Anytime I hear a young person say they want to be an entertainer, I ask, Well, what exactly do you want to do? They NEVER have an answer. And it scares the shit out of me. If I meet one more 30-year-old who’s working on a record deal….

Just as Barack Obama brings a message of hope to his presidency, I can’t help but watch “American Idol” and lament that this is the extent of hope for so many. We have lost those dreams of peace on earth and good will to men. Of family, of achievement, of community, of ending world hunger. To hell with all that. That stuff is hard.

We just want to go to Hollywood.